Why You Shouldn’t Write Love Poems Anymore

Because each line is a note on suffering.
Each word is a reminder that we write better when we are shattered.
They say this is idealizing an emotional terror. You will liken your grief
to a scar from a wound that was self-chosen.
You will be forced to write lines that cut right through the heart because without it,
you might as well have written something about a fruit or that mother begging
in the streets while carrying her child in the rain.
If you will be reminded of how happy you once were,
smoke a cigarette, grab a beer, and listen to the saddest songs
in your music collection. Don’t write a word. Don’t think of words
and arrange them into lines of memories and metaphors. Recollection
is a knife that scrapes the bone beneath. Open the windows when you cannot breathe.
Each word you can think of would start a fire and no amount of crying will ever put it out.
Whenever you remember her, think of it as a random coincidence: there is no happiness
in happenstance. Time passes to remind you of everything you happen to remember.
Isn’t it tragic that you still say her name the same way? Do not gather words into sentences
even if longing confirms her absence.
Instead, write a story about forgiveness and oblivion.
Before you start with your first sentence, look up at the sky so you would know
that somehow you are trying to find your way back to yourself.
Do not write love poems anymore. When you do, this will be the last time
you will suffer these verses for her.

Gari Vinluan is an advertising professional. He graduated with a degree in Creative Writing and Sociology at the University of the Philippines Diliman. He is currently finishing stories for a chapbook to be released sometime this year, hopefully.

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